I'm so done

With this shit. Having to deal with all of this. Moving, not moving, constantly cleaning, constantly showing the house, having to walk on egg shells, not being able to see my friends, having to be frickin' homeschooled, and worst of all not having my boyfriend here to comfort me through all of it.

If I could have anything fixed in all of that, that would be it. I just wish he was here...

But I know this is good for him. And for me too (although I really can't see why). I guess I'm supposed to grow as a person? The only growing I've been doing is sideways, I eat my emotions.

Well not anymore. Now I just cry. All the frickin' time. It could be a thought, or a picture, or a movie, or a song. Just about anything seems to be setting me off nowadays. Which you know, is awesome... especially when it leads to worse stuff.

And I know things can always get worse, but shit I know they can get a hell of a lot better too.
Something needs to change.